Why'd We Wait So Long to Reconnect and Rekindle?

I'm not sure exactly why I didn't see Victor throughout those years. We did keep in touch though. I loved our conversations. He could be a little preachy at times, but I think most guys can get that way about one subject or other. I loved that I could talk to him about whatever I wanted and he'd listen without judging. Plus he always gave me a good perspective on whatever guy(s) I was currently dealing with. He'd always ask "So how're the boys?". At the time, the trip to his place took over 90 minutes but I'm not sure that was the reason we didn't see each other, either. He even offered to take me out to eat and to shows and things. Looking back I gotta ask myself, what was wrong with me? All I can say for myself is that I was young and dumb and I kept getting caught up in the wrong guys. Of course they seemed right at the time, but you know what they say about hindsight. As for Victor, here was a great guy who was willing to wine and dine me AND we had good chemistry. But I didn't think it would go beyond just being playmates. I was looking to be in a serious relationship with someone and I didn't think I could with him. He was more about serious fun. And he knew my background and all my sexual secrets. I felt like I needed to start with someone new. I guess that might have been the main reason why I didn't see Victor again for so long. Also, I enjoyed our online and phone friendship and didn't see a real need to change things. I do regret not taking him up on those offers because we can't go back and he's not able to offer me the same things now. But I am soo glad we remained friends. Because little did I know but the next time we saw each other would lead to the start of some rather interesting encounters, and this time I was ready for some of that serious fun...