Feelings, Nothing More Than Feelings

I started this blog as a way to chronicle the new and unprecedented experiences I was having with my friend of many years, and (sometimes) his girlfriend. As they continue to happen, I'll continue to write. And hopefully, you'll continue to read.

Just recently someone asked 'what if my feelings got too involved'. Was I risking getting in too deep and possibly getting hurt? There were also the feelings of Victor and Alyssa to take into account. Although I have spoken with Victor about this, I can really only speak for myself. I cherish what I share with Victor. My relationship with him is unlike any of the others in my life. He's actually one of my best friends, in that I feel I can share almost anything with him and I treasure him as a friend. Then there's the intimate side of it. And it is a very intimate thing to share your body with another. I've always felt comfortable with him and respected by him. I love having him as a lover.

But that's really where the buck stops. As much as we share, we'd never be right for each other as more than friends. Our views on the most important issues are polar opposite. And while I'm attracted to him, I've never thought of him as potential significant other material, not for myself. Victor's a great guy, a really great guy, and he's met his match in Alyssa. Not only do they adore each other but they fit each other, they're just right together. I mean they'd have to be, to be willing to share each other with other people. They have a special type of trust that enables this and sustains their relationship. And as we got to know each other better, I was becoming fond of Alyssa as well. The only thing I sometimes worry about is any or all of us becoming a little too attached to the situation. I know our 3some play is not a forever thing, but I see them as always having a place in my life. I hope this explains things well enough.